Anger — 2 comments by kaeis
(The following is my comment to a post simply titled, “Anger.”)
You want anger?
I’ll give you anger. So much anger it’ll make your head spin.
Well, not really. You see, I don’t like myself when angry. I feel I have lost control of me. I feel the good in me has been stabbed by an unwelcome visitor.
I get anger from my PTSD and have to be careful because I can hurt someone if the emotion is allowed to run free.
Now, what’s this about your innocence?
You still have it.
You may have lost a feeling, been betrayed, given up something precious.
But the real you, that c h i l d inside is still there and can be contacted on a daily basis once you set your mind to it and try to recall those moments when you loved something.
No, not another human being.
It can be a favorite dog, a song, a picture, even a small child or elderly person who rekindled memories of more joyful times.
But you got to grab that feeling and stretch it out as far as possible. This allows you to build on it later with another positive emotion and then another until you get to the point in your life when you are dueling with anger from a 3 to 1 odds. You get three really good positive feelings to that one spike of a bastard, Mr. Anger.
Positive will win out in the long run. That is, if your string of positive feelings have been built up and you habitually look for more positivism in your life.
But only if you let the anger dissipate. It CAN kill you and take away 10 years of your life, according to latest scientific research.
Hey. Stay cool. Live longer. More happily.
November 1, 2009 at 9:01 am
Hello there. Thank you for your advice. It helped me focus on what’s important.
I am now feeling a lot better, even though I mentioned that I didn’t want to, at least not for a while.
When I was writing this blog, it’s not as if I “want” to be angry, it’s just that sometimes it is hard for me to let go.
And about my innocence, you are right. It’s kind of still there, but “sometimes” I just feel that it is a different person, rather than it being myself in the past.
I know that I’m turning into this grumpy, pessimistic and bitter person, and I’m trying my best to pull myself away from that. Despite saying that, there are several events in my daily life that triggers the bitterness in me. As you have said, I guess I’ll have to make a habit of finding positivity in life.
Again, Thank you, Michael, for your kind words.