Loss of Gmail causes loss of peace of mind

Oh shit. I did something on the computer and I can’t get into my G-mail account.

I feel lost. Unable to get in touch with that part of my world I contact on a daily basis. It’s one of the first things I do while sipping my morning coffee and taking my meds. I go to my Gmail. I’m doubly pissed off because I made two friends recently and hoped to visit with them via my e-mail account.

I can read my Gmail account from my phone, but I never learned how to “compose.” I feel useless and all fucked up, if you pardon my French.

Am I regressing to a time when I felt the Universe was kicking me in the teeth? Yes. I haven’t felt this way since my worst days in Vietnam. Getting kicked in the teeth and feeling so hopeless about the world around me. I made it through those long ass days back then never knowing if there’d be light at the end of the deepest and darkest days.

I’ll survive this too. But what misery, what pain I am going through right now.


How did this happen, you might ask. I applied a device called “Ublock.” I hadn’t tried it until the moment I couldn’t rid my Gmail of the unsubscribed newsletters that some son-of-a-bitch linked me to. I got more than a thousand newsletters in my Gmail. I think the  some Trump supporter that I “unfriended”on Facebook.

I kept getting this one newsletter in some foreign language and no matter what I did, I couldn’t stop the daily barrage. So I tried to block it.

The next thing I knew, I couldn’t access my Gmail. I feel fucked!

Now I gotta find a way to contact all my contacts and let them know I’m going to have to get a new e-mail account.

This sucks.


(This is also a free-write for my “Just Write” Group meeting in Collegeville.)

7 comments on “Loss of Gmail causes loss of peace of mind

  1. Nicole says:

    The feeling of hopelessness freaking stinks. Especially when it’s due to a hostile source, as you suspect this is. I hope you’ve gotten things sorted out.

    By the way, I just saw today that you have some diaries published on Daily Kos. Congrats! I love Daily Kos. They help me avoid getting complacent with the new administration.


    • contoveros says:

      It took me a while and I vented with this angry Blog post, but I found a way to get to my Gmail. I have to use Explorer and not Google Chrome.
      Oh well, at least I can still see and read comments by some of the greatest writers this side of Collegeville, PA!

      Michael J, welcoming Nicole to his place


  2. wolfshades says:

    I truly feel your pain, brother. It’s so frustrating, especially when you use your email to store stuff like receipts, software registration details and the like.

    I often fantasize about my work email, hoping that someday my storage will get all wiped out. Means, I’ll have an opportunity to start over, from scratch.

    Good luck. Maybe there’s a way you can get it back. I did a quick search for the problem and found this. Don’t know if it’ll help or not:

    Hi, not an ad-blocker that I’m familiar with, but try clicking on the uBlock button that should be on your toolbar, then edit your preferences to remove Gmail – if you can’t see the button, look in the 3-bar menu – Customize Firefox controls, buttons and toolbars.

    There may also be more options in the Add-ons Manager (Ctrl+Shift+A > Extensions).


  3. nursebelva says:

    let me know when you are back on line


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