Unexplained ‘Pull’ leading me back Home

A gentle “pull” manifested in my Life recently. I noticed it last night while driving, and wanted no more than to live in each passing moment.    

I was feeling the smooth roadway beneath the car  tires, and how the vehicle would take each bump gently, as if caressing my sensitive body and mind. I drove the speed limit. No more, no less. In no hurry. Enjoying the “sense” of a Higher Force guiding  me forward as if I was a child back in one of those little red wagons being cared for by a close relative who wanted nothing more than to serve my best interests.    

I was going home. Literally and figuratively, as I had just spent two and a half hours “pampering” myself, at first receiving acupuncture, and then “scoring” a “high” from my group meditation, travelling from Lansdale to Ambler and then Conshohocken, PA.  But the healing peace that surrounded me, I feel, was not just for me. You see, I hope to share it with others, pass it on through acts of random kindness and compassion.    

CAUTION: THIS 'PULL' HAS ONE HELUVA SENSE OF HUMOR!

I’m not supposed to talk about this, but I hope you can keep a secret. I feel wave after wave of “Love,” a kind of “puppy dog” warmth flow through me as part of this “Pull.” It might have something to do with Kabbalah. Don’t tell any of my Kabbalistic friends, though. We’re not “permitted” to discuss it among ourselves. One reason is a very practical one. Another person following this path might expect to feel the way I feel. And, if they don’t, they may think something is wrong with them, or that I’m a crazy so-and-so who should be more humble and keep to himself any private conversations or communications.    

But, I got a way around that.    

No one is exactly like me! I am unique, totally different from anyone else, yet one with everyone. I’m Buddhist, a recovering Catholic, Greek, a Vietnam veteran, an inactive barrister who’s studying Kabbalah from a Sufi perspective. You can not expect a Sufi “Lover” like me to keep quiet about his feelings for his “Beloved,” and hence, I can describe these “stupid happy” emotions in that context. It’s like I have a “buzz on” when I let myself go and allow the “Pull” to take me where ever this path might wind up. Something this good can not be bad, if you think I might be going down the wrong roadway. Believe me, I have “faith over reason” that it is the right road and I can’t wait to see what lies around the upcoming bend.    

Care to join me? There’s lots of room. Trust me. Just “let go,” and let it “flow.”

28 comments on “Unexplained ‘Pull’ leading me back Home

  1. This is one of my all-time favorites!

    Thanks to you muse for inspiring it . . .

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  2. Miriam Carolina says:

    Michael j,

    This is the path that each one of us if going to take in a specific moment. Everyone will experience this “Pull.” I know what you mean, I have been “pulled” so many times. It is something really special that makes the spirit to elevate to the supreme.

    Miriam Carolina

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  3. Helen T says:

    Michael j,
    You are unique and totally different from anyone else! I trust you.
    While I was driving my car last Sunday, suddenly I recall you. My thought was,’Michael j is a good example how to share love and compassion. I admire him’.
    It could seem strange but it really was without the reason. I felt connection.
    Helen.

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    • contoveros says:

      “Agape” is the name for what the Greeks call “Divine Love.” You connected with it. All the way over on your side of the globe.

      Me too. Over here. Kinda like a brotherly love, but a little higher, more pure. Divine.

      I guess. But isn’t that what an opinion is? A guess at what one believes is the truth? This is what happens when you read too much Camus, Helen T. Too much living “up there” rather than back here on earth driving the car on a Sunday . . .

      michael j

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      • Helen T says:

        What is truth? Does it really exist? Everyone creates his or her own reality using his or her brain. The best state of mind is when you are up there and down here at the same time.

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        • contoveros says:

          Truth–Relative

          1. Not absolute or complete
          2. Properly related in size or degree or other measurable characteristics

          Truth — Absolute

          1. Perfect or complete or pure
          2. Complete and without restriction or qualification
          3. Not limited by law
          4. Expressing finality with no implication of possible change
          5. Without conditions or limitations
          6. Not capable of being violated or infringed

          This definition provided by http://www.thetruthsoflife.com/index2.html

          Glad you asked the question, Helen T!

          michael j

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          • Helen T says:

            ‘In order to know Absolute Truth, we have to stop thinking, conceptualizing, opinionating, interpreting and perceiving altogether’. It is behind a side of my understanding. Difficult subject.
            Thanks, Michael j.

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  4. Yes… me too… pulled along now for the past 5 years or so… started after my first Reiki Attunement and it has never stopped (Art Therapist became Reiki Master, Massage Therapist, Past Life Regression Therapist, WHEW!) What a ride it has been. I can absolutely feel the pull. Crazy interesting to me is all I can say. And now, finally, I feel READY and confident to share what my journey has been all about! I think I can slow down, at least for now. (Just need to pass my LMT exam August 26th!) Diane

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    • Not sure what an LMT exam is, but I’m confident you’ll pass with flying colors, Diane.

      Ain’t it great to realize there’s a Force greater than ourselves that appears to know what is best for us, then, well, our selves? I mean, I don’t think I’d write about half the stuff I freely share if I did not feel “in my bones” that it’s the “right thing” to do. Past Life regression? The Creator’s Kabbalah “pleasure-giving?” And Guardian Angels?

      I’ve written about angels reappearing in my life. A former trial attorney signing his name to document claiming the existence of angels! Not once, but two or three times in posts published on his Blog.

      But it’s me, the new path I walk, finally giving in to the Pull I fought against most of my life, until now.

      It’s freeing. As long as I don’t hurt anyone, I feel free.

      Commitable? Probably. But I think I’d be in with some good company where ever they’d lock me away.

      michael j

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      • souldipper says:

        Michael J., earlier this year, I asked a psychiatrist friend what the psychiatric field would say about my intuitive messages. If you are interested, here’s the answer: http://souldipper.wordpress.com/2010/01/20/the-partnership-of-soul-purpose/

        The “parameter” give me lots of reassurance. Plus a recent family visit brought out the experiences of others in my family. Neat surprises.

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        • contoveros says:

          Amy,

          This is “One Step Beyond” stuff we’re talking here.

          But, I like it, I like it. It feels right.

          Why have we been given this chore? I ain’t no saint, and I still have a lot of “corrections” to make in my Life. Can a person write inspirational stuff but still be found wanting the other moments in his life?

          That’s me.

          That’s my PTSD, my Ego, my past.

          For any that want another look at another take on the “Pull,” see Sid’s Blog and the article at:

          http://rightbraintherapy.net/2010/02/02/bipolar-personality/

          michael j

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          • souldipper says:

            Can you imagine how boring we would be without all our wrinkles, warts, dark sides and idiotic mistakes amongst those times of brilliance? From what I have learned, the Guides have some pretty interesting personal stories, too. As long as we have free will, it will be so.

            Contrast. That’s what we have. And the ever challenging and elusive ability to balance them.

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      • My husband and I had a few friends over on Saturday to enjoy a Reisling Festival and Dinner… most of them are “amused” I think… by me… and my “path” these past 5 years… someone said “what do you come away with, why would you do it (a Past Life Regression)?” So, it seems sort of clear to me that SOME people are not LIKE US… there is no need for anything more than what they have here on earth. I can’t imagine that! And thank God for people like YOU and BLOGS that are far reaching! (Oh… an LMT is a LICENSED Massage Therapist. I’m currently working with a limited permit. Massage Therapy was more of a PUSH than a PULL! It provided much needed “grounding” to my spiritual endeavors!) Diane

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        • contoveros says:

          In Kabbalah, they talk about a “push” from the Creator that’s needed for our spiritual development when we are too slow in cultivating it with our own free will.

          As far as the company I keep, I’d rather hang out with a soulstrand and a souldipper any old day.

          michael j

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          • souldipper says:

            I’ll hang out with you any day, Michael J. And I appreciate “discovering” Soulstrand through your blog. I anticipate an alternating time with both of you: student – teacher – student…

            Incidentally, I tried to set up an RSS feed to Soulstrand’s blog. Am I missing something or has it not been set up yet on her blog?

            Yes, it would be fabulous if we could teleport to each other for tea – just letting the mind take care of travel arrangements. Hope to experience this capability before I finish here.

            Hope you are content today.

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            • contoveros says:

              Amy,

              Check with Diane at her site. I’m sure she has some hookup.

              Am I content? I meditated with a group this morning and I’ll be with another one tonight.

              Content ain’t the word. I’m “calm abiding.”

              michael j

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            • I feel honored to be in such good company today! RSS Feed? My internet/blog guru (my son), will be home in September so will help me to understand/set up THIS better. Most of my time and effort has been in studying these days… can’t wait to be off and running… with no limitations… Diane

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          • I feel the PULL as a doorway opening up and beckoning me… the PUSH as an ah ha moment that pops into my head and yanks me to another place… I have also encountered another wonderful phenomenon… ENDLESS DAYS… long stretches where time does not exist as linear??? Any one else? Diane

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            • contoveros says:

              It usually happens when I get so wrapped up into something or things I love, that I forget about time. A week either seems like a year, or simply a day.

              I don’t think I age during those timeless stretches, Diane. I’m having too much fun!

              michael j

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  5. I am also being pulled right now. Four books have made their way to me in the past two weeks, all with the same message / teaching from different perspectives. Now your blog shows up, which resonates with all of it as well. Let go and enjoy the Flow, indeed! What a ride. 😉

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    • contoveros says:

      Letting “Someone” else pull us can be a little scary, but who needs to control every thing in Life? Look at what “having control” has gotten us to! I really don’t mind letting go to go with the flow.

      Amy sent me into your direction. I felt “pulled.” Don’t know why, but let me simply say “Hello!”

      michael j

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  6. souldipper says:

    Wow, that was a great synopsis of who Michael J. is. Well, we know there’s a whole bunch more, but what a wonderfully succinct overview.

    Thank God enthusiasm is contagious.

    And, Michael J., move over just a bit. You’re sitting on my manual for the GPS.

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    • contoveros says:

      I’ll let you take charge of the wheel, Amy. We’re on the same road and I think you got a pretty good idea where we’re headed . . .

      michael j

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  7. Eric says:

    Awesome, Michael. This post made me pretty cheerful. I’m envious but in a good way (if thats possible). Keep spreading the love, man! If you have love and show it, there’s nothing to be ashamed of. There will be those who try to make you feel ashamed or claim a monopoly on truth or spirit. Life’s too short.

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    • contoveros says:

      Nothin’ like spreading the word, one day at a time, one word at a time.

      Thanks, Eric. The truth is the truth no matter what book we find it in.

      michael j

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