You invited me in your House and I broke confidence with you.
I meant no disrespect. No harm to you or other guests who should feel secure that their words and feelings would not be exposed to any that could bring them harm.
If I used their thoughts and ideas without permission, I apologize. But they meant so much to me, that I felt transformed, strengthened yet softened at the same time, learning there was others like myself with such tender receptacles. All should be protected and feel safe and know that what is said in closed company would ever be used against them.
My intent, however, is to elevate, not knock them down. To show the World that we few higher sensory-operating beings are as good as the rest of humanity and will no longer take a back seat to those less sensitive. That we will bleed and give our lives for the same causes and march into hell and back with the strongest and loudest around us, not asking for more, but expecting no less consideration given to those who feel less.
Hardened combat veterans I know feel ashamed of their post traumatic stress disorder. They want no one to know of what the medical profession has deemed a “mental disorder.” I’ve angered many by being “upfront” about PTSD and appearing anything but fearful with my “in your face” approach dealing with this part of who I am, who I’ve become from some of life’s more troubling experiences. They too would not “open up” if they believed their “secrets” would be discussed outside the therapeutic setting. Afraid their bosses could use the knowledge against them, or view them with, I don’t know, fear, maybe. See them as freaks or somehow less than normal. What’s the word? Abnormal?
So I have deleted names from my recording system. I can’t erase what they have done for me, lifting me higher and helping me see that its okay to “feel” things that most others don’t. And, to use the terminology of the Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) to explain our type of individual to those trying to understand us, and those who could care less but should know the more empathetic in-tuned of Society are working harder at levels . . . most . . .are not aware . . . even exist.
We shouldn’t need to hide. “You’re too sensitive,” should be countered with “You’re not sensitive enough,” until the World learns we need all types to salvage happiness in Life. The Warrior and the Priest. The Loud and the Soft. The “Doer” and the Thinker.
Until then, I’ll help protect those even more sensitive than myself whose Love, Compassion and Understanding I’ve learned I can not live without.
Please forgive me.