Don Quixote battles PTSD in Philly courts

     I never felt more like Don Quixote than when I represented a woman charged with a crime.

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War stories penetrate a family gathering

    The knife “broke skin” and went an inch into my back.

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‘Evidence for Mister God?’ Look Around

          Vivienne,  you asked what I liked about the book “To Mister God, this is Anna.”  All of the following are the direct quotes of the author Fryn, also known as Sydney Hopkins:

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The Gospel According to Bobby Darin

     Wasn’t sure a Gospel Song would fit in with Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) at a music appreciation meet last week.

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Answer is Within, 2nd Coming Proclaims

The Gospel Writers got it All Wrong!

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‘Divine Madness’ Reaches Out To Me Daily

Divine Madness

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A Jury can ‘nullify’ a law to stop injustice

Jury Nullification

Mandatory Sentence

     In at least one country, as a practicing attorney, I would not be permitted to speak to you of those two terms should you happen to be serving on a jury.

     See, the government thought it wiser to keep that information away from a jury hearing a trial in a criminal case. Some jurors might want to take the law into their own hands, so to speak.

    That’s what jury nullification actually is. A jury has the power to “nullify” a law it does not want to follow. Understand that? If you feel the law would be unjust, you can simply decide not to apply the law.

     Can anyone spell anarchy? That’s what would happen if every jury swore in to uphold the law took it upon itself to disregard it. But I’m not talking about every case. Just the exceptional one where 12 people agree that the application of the law would cause more harm than good.

Mandatory Sentence Could Mean Years in Jail

     Kinda goes along with Mandatory Sentences. Defense lawyers in this same country are not permitted to tell a jury that its verdict will lead to mandatory outcomes, no matter what a jury might have been led to believe. Studies show that most juries believe defendants usually end up getting probation or some “light” sentence. But state legislators in this country wanted to ensure no “lenient” judge could get away with not “sending someone away,” no matter what the circumstances for certain offenses.

     A lot of “mandatory” sentences have to do with crimes against victims of a certain age. Do you know if you strike a child of a certain age, the law mandates that you serve at least one year in jail, no matter what? Unless a prosecutor agrees to “demandatorize” a sentence, a babysitter 18 or older slapping a child of a certain age must serve 365 days in jail upon conviction, at least in the part of the country I’m talking about.

Stiff Sentences are Okay for Certain Offenses

     A young man who is led to believe the young female he spent the night with was over a certain age, faces a similar mandatory sentence. It’s called statutory rape, no matter what lies the person under 14 offered, or the lack of intent to commit any crime when he had consensual sex.

     Most may say the sombitch deserves it. Unless it is a member of their family, a close friend, or, God forbid, themselves.

     Or got involved with drugs and had in your possession an amount that presupposes possession with the intent to deliver, which calls for, you guessed it, a mandatory sentence, no matter what the circumstances.

Felony Charge Could Apply for Marijuana

     I was shocked when I learned a person who simply possessed a certain amount of marijuana could be charged with a felony for selling dope.

People I knew in my teens often purchased an ounce or more.

If they’d put the grass in small zip lock bags for later use and or convenience, the packaging of the marijuana itself could lead to a rebuttable presumption that it was for the “intent to deliver.”    

Well, a jury could disregard the law if it saw fit

     But I was never allowed to tell a jury in Philadelphia that it had such power. Not permitted to even mention a mandatory sentence, or I’d face contempt charges from a judge.

Sentencing is not in the “province” of the jury; only guilt or innocence is what a judge would instruct me after my imprisonment, monetary fine, or both.

History Shows we can Disregard the Law Sometimes!

     Could not tell a jury in America that landmark cases such as those involving William Penn, the founder of Pennsylvania, or John Peter Zenger, a New York printer whose case stood for both Freedom of the Press and Truth as a Defense Against Libel, were kept from imprisonment because a jury saw fit to disregard the law each brave man had so clearly broken. They were found “Not Guilty,” despite the law. Some might say “in spite” of the law.

     A dream I had last night inspired me to whisper this piece of advice to you, should you ever serve on a jury. Go ahead. Disregard the law if you, in all “good consciousness,” feel it’s the right thing to do.

     It really is the American Way, no matter what my government won’t allow me to tell you.

Connect to ‘Mother’ for Enlightenment

                         I saw the “Observer” of my Thoughts the other day.

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All’s Well that Ends Well With a Not Guilty

Part II cont’d from jury-trial-first-day-on-the-job

     Sometimes, while trying a case to a Jury of 12 people, a transformation would take place when I least expected it.

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Jury Trial Faced My First Day on the Job

You gotta be careful for what you wish for . . .

Your Dream just might come true. Over. . . and over . . . and over again.

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City differences create a variety in my life

Cherry-Chocolate

Soda

I’d give anything to taste the flavor of a that drink again.

     Not the ones from a bottle. A soda fountain drink! Nothing compares to the delicious mixture of “realchocolate” and cherry syrups combined with that seltzer-like substance that produced a drink that could have originated only in Paradise.

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Al Brown Taught me a Lesson of a Lifetime

     I always looked up to Al Brown. I met him when I was only eight-and-a-half years old in the 1950s.

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Seeing improves with my cataract removal

     My “Fishbowl” Look is Gone.

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Bliss arises in cherishing of another’s woes

     An African American woman showed me how to take on the suffering of the world during a five-day retreat on perfecting perpetual peace in my soul.

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Out for Jury Duty; Please leave a message

     Jury Duty calls me to serve today. Don’t think many attorneys would want to pick a guy like me. I’m biased and would vote my conscience no matter which side claims they hold the truth and nothing but the truth “So Help Me God.”

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‘Letting Go’ Today Frees Me for Tomorrow

     Taking a step today that scares me. Going to become an “Initiate Buddhist at a morning ceremony. Do a prostration, touch my forehead to the floor, and recognize a Power greater than myself.

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‘Do the Right Thing’–do what’s right for you

Part II from Escaping-Brewerytown

       The moment of truth came down to one question: “Who else was with you?”

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Escaping Brewerytown in 1 Piece Not Easy

     I never took my eyes off the gun. The man’s hand shook. I was afraid it would go off. Raising my own hands, I prayed that he would not shoot, and said “I’m coming out,” slowly climbing out of the window, placing one foot on the ground and then the other as I exited the ACME supermarket warehouse building two blocks from my home. Continue reading

Love generates within for no reason at all

I Tasted Love before I ever “Entered” an Age of Reason.

     I had not reached 7, but I remember it as if it was yesterday. I was attending a birthday party for a friend of my brother, John, who is two years older than me. Her name was Carolyn, and the love I felt came from her sister, Regina Gross, who the older kids enjoyed “fixing up” with me, her school classmate.

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‘Garlic’s Imprint’ Holds Many Limitations

     A friend dreamed she could not swim well in water and had to return to the shore or face peril. It seems the dream reflected her real life. (See “To Be Me.”) She said she was not a very good swimmer, and she wondered why — even in one’s dream — we impose such limitations on ourselves?

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‘Sound Bath’ Calms & Heals us with Love

      I feel a healing begin, as tears form, and I am so grateful to release what’s building inside — something so wonderful it becomes too good to contain.

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Love & compassion’s for all God’s creatures

     Did not know what a Buddhist sangha could mean to me, until four of us aspiring students focused on a multi-colored insect at lunch, discussed its past and future life-aspects, and showed compassion to a sentient being whom we might have swatted away before gaining our insight on Sunday.

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I’m heartily sorry for having offended thee

     “Michael J,

     The biggest lie you ever told was that you could say something about sexual orientation and not hurt someone whose way of life might be different from yours.

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Courtroom awakens karma understanding

 One of the most humbling times in my life occurred in Court.

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Going back home sans the Maidenform bra

      What’s the biggest lie you ever told?

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Values don’t change in impermanent world

      I was 18 when I asked Janet to marry me, and she turned my request down flat.

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Saigon Lady offers wisdom at check out

       Saigon Lady taught me about Life and Buddhism last night.   

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Dance floor good place to learn to play ball

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Hit upside the head provides a life lesson

     The detective hit me across the face with a back hand, and I knew I was in trouble.

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Dream of Swinging on a Star Rings Out

Part II  Smith’s Playground inspires years later

     Reaching out with my right hand, I’d grab the metal ring. I would stand on my toes to pull it closer to the wooden platform I was balanced on.     

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Dream of Smith’s Playground Inspires Me

     Childhood long gone, I’d dream about the “monkey swing” at Smith’s Playground whenever I wanted to achieve something worthwhile in my life.

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Remember to enjoy the ride getting ‘there’

        I Entered the “Twilight Zone” Yesterday.

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Getting ‘Fired’ up for Singing Debut on TV

      Mister JR Johnson fired me when he caught me entertaining” friends at his place of business.

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Cock-Sure Rooster Leads in Race to Hades

      They stood eye-ball to eye-ball, only inches away.

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Time to get back into the swim of life now

Thirty-Six Laps!

     The “kid” still got it. Swam 36 laps this afternoon, the first time I’ve exercised in four months.

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Mary’s Tears help Battle Flashbacks of War

       The only thing that seemed to help Mary was the tears.

    The act of crying seemed to “loosen up” and cushion the fear and anxiety that would strike her unexpectantly. Every time she’d hear a siren, she’d feel her chest tighten, her palms sweat, and her heartbeat race. Twenty minutes” she’d say and look at a watch or a clock. It will all be over in 20 minutes. The world as she knew it would all be over. Destroyed by nuclear war.

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Immigration Stories Hit Close to Home

   Inspired by an open letter my friend Kim prepared for politicians, I started to think about some immigrants I have known in my life.

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Answers to Questions about Vietnam War

This Veteran tells a Student about the War

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Old love songs morph into new spirituals

Never Knew Some Songs were Spiritual

Check Them Out:

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A soldier bows in salute to heartfelt words

A Soldier, and No One Else!

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Light shines here from a tip of the candle

     Veterans Can Share Understanding of War

      ‘Veterans are the light at the tip of the candle, illuminating the way for the whole nation.   

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50 chews per bite is goal, not meals’ end!

The Outcome Doesn’t Matter

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Imperfect clergy always been kinda cool

I could never be a clergyman.

I curse too much.

Damn it!

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War guilt haunts veteran year after year

Premonition of Something Bad Arises

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Merging Two into One Okay, Michael J

“Belief in God, and

following Buddhism

is not incompatible.”

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Grief Delayed me while in Military Service

I was in the Army less than a week when the news hit me. I had my head shaven; my civilian clothes exchanged for fatigue pants and a shirt, not to mention boots and headgear, something I had never worn before in my life.

Got drafted on the Third of June, the day that Billie Jo McAllister jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge! I was 19 years old in 1968 — knew no one — and was away from my Philadelphia, PA, home for the first time.

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Hudson River Magic Calls me to Omega

      Got a check for $9 in the mail yesterday. It was for travel expenses on a trip I took five months ago. It came to me like magic. I must have lost it in the IKEA store of Conshohocken, and it just appeared out of nowhere for my return trip.

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Be ‘Gentle,’ not Meek, to Inherit the Earth

      Ever meet someone who wanted to grow up “Meek?”

     You know, as in “the Meek‘ shall inherit the Earth?”

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Old warriors share PTSD woes with young

      Never thought of myself as a “warrior.” Wasn’t that a term used by Third World tribes or ancient civilizations building empires on one war after another?

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‘Sutta Nipata’ Calls me to Omega Institute

     Will return to Omega Institute this week for a 5-day Retreat to meditate on PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) with veterans led by the Rev. Claude AnShin Thomas, an ordained Buddhist monk and a Vietnam War veteran.

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Jump at Chance to Finally Let Your Self Go

John 13. Verses 3-4 says:

“So during supper, fully aware that the Father had put everything into his power and that he had come from God and was returning to God, he rose from supper and took off his outer garments.”

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Meditate and it will ‘erase’ all but the Now

Ruby,

     You tell me you wish that we could have an eraser in our lives to go back and “Erase Our Mistakes.”    

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Writing clears up the ‘clogged up’ space

Josie,

     Writing opens my sinuses.

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Always Look Within, To Now See Outside

      A long red light usually gets on my nerves while sitting in traffic, but time went so quick just now. I’m exploring the World of a Mystic.

And fit right in!

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Put a finger on ‘Sa Ta Na Ma’ Meditation

     Got a quick “fix” for you. But don’t try to finger this hit” unless you’re alone, or with someone you trust.

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Loving, Longing, Yearning for My Beloved

     When will I see my Beloved? To feel arms surround me, a touch to comfort me, the warmth of an embrace to shelter me from any harm man can devise against another.

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Need spiritual evolution now, not hereafter

     Don’t want Catholicism, Protestantism, or Judaism. Don’t force me to become a Hindu, a Muslim or even a Buddha. Let me form a “Me-ism,” a spirituality that takes a lot from all the above and blends it into what I feel inside when I’m alone and away from the “Shall Nots,” the 84,000 teachings, and a belief that the “hereafter” must be better than the present.

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A body speaks its mind to free and heal you

     I felt free for the first time in a long time today. Dr. Jodi Schwartz-Levy conducted a Somatic Therapy session for four practioners, and each walked away with all expectations met. And then some.

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Take a risk; a new you may emerge from it!

      A card turned over as I accidentally moved my hand to uncover four other small cards randomly picked from a tray on the carpeted floor. Sitting in the Lotus position with a legless “cloth” chair to support my back, I leaned over to read the card.

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2010 Time Capsule: Nick’s HS Class Trip

       Saw you off on your class trip, and while we parted on a bad note, my son Nicholas, I want to leave something to perhaps get the sour taste out of our mouths.

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Fowl Locked Up after Spiritual Book Bash

      The rooster rushed me as I turned my back. I had just gotten two paperback books from the mailbox and was preparing to feed him.

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Make yourself a clean, well-lighted place

     There’s nothing like a clean, well-lighted sink.

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After 40 Years, I Learn About “Nothing”

    It took me some 40 years, but I think I finally realized what John Lennon was saying in one of the last songs he wrote and sang with the Beatles.

Buddhist Teaching of ‘Nothing‘ is Everything 

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Writing the old-fashioned way inspires me

    Got inspired to write while working on my third cup of coffee. I wait the 90 minutes I’ve given to a meeting I scheduled at IKEA in Conshohocken, PA, for Highly Sensitive Persons (HSP).

Prolific is as Prolific Does.

     Haven’t seen hide nor hair of one. An HSP-er, that is. Got the book by Elaine N. Aron, Ph.D. propped up at my table: “The Highly Sensitive Persons – How to Thrive When the World Overwhelms You.

    Just noticed the author trained at the Jung Institute in San Francisco, CA. Did not know such an institution existed. It ties in nicely with Jung’s book on dreams that I read. Actually, I “studied” Jung as I began a 6-week daily dream-interpretation journal on Feb. 13, 2009. It was a Friday the 13th.

    Still have all the writings. They’re buried somewhere in the house along with insurance papers, VA (Veterans Administration) documents, and a year’s worth of collected junk. Got to get them together and compiled like I recently have done with six months of Blog entries. Maybe add them to the 2-week, non-stop journal writing I pushed myself to do while at an in-patient program for veterans at the Coatesville (PA) VA Medical Center the summer of 2008.

Combat Veteran Problems Not Easily Shared

  •     When a veteran opened up to me, I wrote about their ailments, their suicide attempts and their bouts with alcoholism and drugs.
  •     Will have to change their names for confidentiality purposes, although the journalist inside of me cries out to keep those facts for posterity and history.
  •     But some people could be hurt if I mentioned names, particularly, that of one fellow, whose exploits on the battlefields of Vietnam and the streets of Philadelphia make for the most colorful recollections of any warrior I ever met.
  •    Has a nationally known and celebrated brother who might see such a story as an exploitation” of secrets left better untold. At least until parties who could suffer were no longer with us to suffer.

    Stay Tuned, but Don’t Expect Anything Too Soon.

   Instead, enjoy the “post entries I composed today (March 24, 2010) while sitting here waiting. Dug pretty deep to come up with some good recollections, if I do say so myself. They included an “out-of-body experience,” a mystical realization that there is no ‘there’ there,” a modern-day “miracleinvolving the VA, my “greatest weekend” ever, the tale of “Dr. Roach,” and of course this minor offering.

    Was I just “killing time” while simply “Waiting for Godot?” (Like in the play, no one showed up during my wait in real life.) Or did I open myself, allowing inspiration to visit and whisper, getting me to recall things the old-fashioned way, with a long hand,” a pen, and a piece of paper?

Now is when path and goal merge as one

      I entered the world of the Mystic while sitting on a bench at the foot of my bed in what seems a lifetime ago. It lasted only a moment. But the realization struck me like a bolt of lightning.   

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Remembering the Greatest Time of my Life

      What does your first memorable kiss, and then scoring a break-away touchdown and opening to your Higher Self all have in common?

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Acupuncture pitches ‘halvies’ to a Vet

Had an “Out-of-Body” Experience.

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‘Yes’ you can ‘Whirl’ & ‘Close’ to a Jury

          My “performance” complete, I drop to my chair, taking deep breaths, trying to avoid showing what the past action has cost me.

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Dolphins display love as human escorts

Hung over. Tired. Hard to get out of bed.

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Don’t let Love speed away; but yield slowly

Cont’d from Part I, Dolphins display love as human escorts

     Opening up to a stranger is never easy. But when you feel trust and an open vulnerability offered to you, you can shed your safeguards and become the loving person I believe we were always meant to be. Just yield slowly.

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Three Mile Island Erupts with Memories

     The looming towers of Three Mile Island (TMI) grew in size as I drove from Conshohocken to Harrisburg, PA, some 90 miles away. It was on this very day, March 28, 1979, that America experienced fear and second-guessing of its decision to build nuclear reactors so close to populated areas.

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True Love can Quench Allison’s Desire #1

Your “Beloved,” is what you need. You yearn and long for Him, don’t you?

Always have, always will.

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My Love Longs For Love For Ever More

     Some words, phrases, even entire messages look different through the lens of time. Take this feeling I expressed to a friend half-way around the world about the “yearning” I felt on reading Sufi poems for the first time.

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Dance with Love where ever you find Him

      I danced a Sufi “dervish whirling” at the Buddhist Center today.

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New Worlds Open at the Turn of a Page

     A door to the possible mysteries of life opened slightly yesterday. My friend, Joy, introduced me to the Kabbalah.

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Cat’s Meow: ‘Thank you, I Love you too!’

     I’m a “Cat Person.” Always been as far back as I can remember. Grew up with the felines rubbing up against the legs, “meowing” their concerns for the next meal or a friendly pat on the head and neck.

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Let the sun shine with all our appreciation

(Cont’d from Sun shines to make up for snowed in winter)

Sun Shines Bright with Only One Eye Opened

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Sun shines to make up for snowed in winter

     Played “peek-a-boo” with the sun and shade this morning. On the road from Ambler to Conshohocken, PA, I engaged Old Sol in a game the Almighty must have created for mankind’s appreciation. Why else would God — who caused the sun to come into being from some huge cosmic explosion — have invented shadows? It’s all part of His Love for us humans!

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‘Rock Star’ Lightens the Hold on this Life

           I squeeze the malachite stone as if it was one of those “stress” balls used to relieve tension and exercise the forearm.

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Malachite Rocks me & all of my Chakras

Con’td from Time travel a stone’s throw (or hold) away

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Live life today in love for death tomorrow

  • Disobey your expectations.
  • Throw away the list of things to do.
  • Live today as if there was no tomorrow.
  • Better yet, live as if Death will greet you very soon.

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Surprise! You’re HSP and Never Knew It

     “Chef J” had no idea what she was getting herself into when she surfed the computer early Saturday morning. But, by the end of the day, she found more than a dozen people who were “just like her,” struggling to make sense of a world that seems cold to the sensitivity of others.

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A Shower can Bless Me, if I but ‘Let Go’

     Running water. Somebody designed a way to allow it to flow from a water way directly into our houses. And not just to one spot in my Conshohocken, PA, home, but at least four: the kitchen, two bathrooms and a spigot for hosing plants outdoors.

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International greetings shared back home

     Went “international” yesterday. Had breakfast near my home in Conshohocken and greeted 11 people from five countries as I “table-hopped” brandishing my All-American smile, learning you don’t have to travel the world to find your Self. The world can find you right where you live. If you open your heart.

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Tibetan Singing Bowl aids a Goddess & Me

     Kneeling on my knees, I hold the bowl out with one hand, while placing the other hand on the wooden floor, crawling from one side of the chair to another.

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Name-caller gets his butt kicked in the end

Originally Cont’d from Name-calling can get you kicked in the end 1-28-10

     Calling a kid names could cause a lasting scar one may have to deal with later in life.

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‘First Love Found’, never lost a Heartbeat

Orginally Cont’d From   Love’s First Kiss) 12-2-09

     What was it like to be a pre-teen, meeting a person who’d, maybe one day, be the Love of your Life?

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Part III, Don’t “Squander Away” Your Life

Originally Cont’d from Don’t squander away your life 12-5-09

     How can I deal with PTSD and prevent “squandering away” my life?

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Flowers Offer a Heart-Felt Home-Coming

Originally Cont’d from Flowers still brighten up my new ‘home’ 1-4-10

   Flowers brighten up any room, and the right vase can add an extra touch, particularly, when the arranger puts a Lot of Love into the mix.

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God’s Presence Realized at Breakfast Table

Originally Cont’d from Feeling God’s Presence in the Mundane 12-6-09

    God.

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Schuylkill X-way Miracle Paves Road to VA

Cont’d from ‘Right’ path never obstructed long, Part II

     The Buddha appeared in a dream. He took on the forms of a soldier, a counselor and then a computer printer. How could such an entity take shape in such different apparitions?

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Dream helps guide me back to Paradise

Originally Cont’d from Dream Reveals Key to Paradise 12-2-09

 I Realized that I was in Paradise.

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Jury Duty Requires Your ‘Just Reasoning’

(Originally Cont’d from 999 reasons why a Buddhist can sit on jury 1-31-10)

While explaining his enlightening story to students, Tshering noted that a vicious attack ended, as the monster known as Angulimala fell to the ground and the Buddha consoled him offering loving kindness and compassion. This experience completely transformed this lowly criminal.

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A ‘right’ path may never be obstructed long

Con’td from Rooster helps open path to miraculous day

     Oh no! I forgot my ID. Second day in a row I pulled such a stupid stunt. And here I am, braving the snow and cold to drive from Conshohocken, PA, to the Veterans Administration building in Philadelphia.

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A new tutor learns a lesson from real life

     I hope to start to tutor Natalka about the English language.  And, at the same time,  learn more of life than I ever could from any book.

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‘Barrister Bu’ — a ‘Buddha Nature’ Lawyer

     I’ve been trying to think of a name to describe myself along this new path I walk — often stumbling — but getting back up like that old Fred Astaire song which says to “pick yourself up, dust yourself off, start all over again . . . I figure everybody should have a response when asked what religion they follow, rather than fumbling for an answer.

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Awakening from the Winter Storm of 2010

     I slept in today. It was the third day in a row that my son was off school because of the great snowstorm of the Winter of 2010. How many of us can recall a time in our lives that school closed for three straight days due to snow?

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