Abraham, Martin & John Live On Within

Rain pours on me outside, while soft music warms me on the inside. “Abraham, Martin, and John,” the song, plays from this relatively new gadget called a portable, hand-held, transistor radio.

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Love Streams in All Good Consciousness

     How do I explain the feelings that have come “over me?” They’re like ocean waves ebbing and flowing in each breath.        

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College Life repeats itself each generation

Sat next to a long hair, skinny, “Hippie” guy at an orientation in a community college yesterday, and felt thrown back to a time years ago, sitting cross-legged on the floor across from a similar fellow wondering what the hell I was doing there.

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Attract Them to a Higher Calling in Life

Prostitute for God.

Is it heresy to suggest such a thing?

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St. Michael strikes and heals all at once

     I felt like Alice falling in the hole after chasing a White Rabbit. But, falling “upwards” defying the laws of Gravity and Rational Sense.

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Act of Contrition Helps Regain My Purity

Got Blanket Absolution yesterday. And, it felt so good, I became a 12-year-old again. Ready to face the world with a clear conscious and a pure heart.

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I See You for the Very First Time, Don’t I?

  • I see You more and more each day. All I need do, is look for You. Kinda scrunch up my mind a bit, squint, and let my Self go.

Try to “feel” You. And I do! All Blessed You. In just the right amount to fill a soul that wishes it were bigger, larger to contain more and more of Your Love that’s omnipresent, all around me. And in me.

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I ‘intend’ nothing but positive bestowals

     How do you explain “unexplainable” events?

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Willie, 20 years later, I still mourn you

      Although you “passed on” after your 17th birthday, you’ll remain alive for me forever. I see you in my dreams. I “feel” your presence as I walk with you, watch you, and hear the footsteps on the steps leading from the dining room to the bedroom upstairs.

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Suffocate? Let go of control & open up self

     Grace suffocated and I retaliated by smashing my ego to help free up her passageway during group meditation this morning.

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Pain endures from struggles in a ‘Back’ Life

The pain feels like someone thrust a spear in my back. That I was in battle. At the city of Troy. Fighting with fellow Greeks for the foolish prize of a minor King’s run-a-way, but lovely, wife, Helen. She with a face that will launch a thousand ships.

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Hawk carries HSPs to their highest ideals

     The hawk glides across the sky, soaring high above us as the first person to notice shouts, “there’s one.” Like children, we stare toward the heavens, at the beautiful blue sky. A normally humid August has graced us with a mild and glorious summer day, blending light breezes and the scent of flowers that drift our way from below the wooden platform we look out from.

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School boss drives Vietnam veteran nuts

Felt I was back in war maneuvering through a mine field called the new educational system yesterday.

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Unexplained ‘Pull’ leading me back Home

     A gentle “pull” manifested in my Life recently. I noticed it last night while driving and wanted no more than to live in each passing moment.

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‘I confess!’ I cut school with Franny O

     I’m going to confess. I played hooky in seventh grade and refused to “squeal” on the kid I stayed out of class with that day.

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Nature Provides Bird’s Eye View of Living

     There’s a true “pecking order” that’s developing in my back yard. And all I have to do is be patient and watch it unfold moment by moment.

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Kabbalah ‘Receiving’ Helps Me in ‘Giving’

     How can I divert pleasure I “receive” into pleasure I can “give?”

     Got that? 

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You can’t make promotions your life’s goal

     You can keep the promotion. Wouldn’t take it, even if offered. Not if I have to make “achievements” my aim, to set a new “goal” in Life.

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“Start Over’ the instant you feel a need to

Start over. That’s all I gotta do . . . Say it to myself and simply “START OVER!”

Lying in bed with one crazy, mixed up thought after another, I told myself to “start over.” Did not know what I meant. But I did mean it.

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Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers

(This story was created in October 2009 but not published in its entirety until now.)

 It’s just like heaven . . . Being here with you . . . You’re like an Angel. Too good to be true. When You are near me.  My heart skips a beat.  I can hardly stand on. My own two feet.  Because I Love You; I Love You, I Do.  ‘Angel Baby’. My ‘Angel Baby’. Oh, Ooh, I Love You, Oh, Ooh, I Do . . .  No One Could Love You . . .  Like I Do!            

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Concealing & finding Self –a life-long effort

     Hello! Anybody here? It sure is dark inside. Like a huge cavern with hardly any light.

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Falling in love with the Love of Your Life

     Fell head over heels in love the past few weeks. Didn’t want to do it. Had always gotten “hurt” in relationships, knowing from the start they’d come to an end one day. Love seemed to change that way. To peter out. End not with a “bang,” but with a “whimper.”

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Nysiros holds secrets of life and death

     I’ll never know what drove Anthoula to take her own life.

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Angels re-enter when you’re open to ’em

     I started seeing angels again. No, hold off on the straight jacket, don’t reserve a room at an asylum. I’m not totally crazy. Yet.

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‘Open your eyes’ to journey of Lifetime

      The snake slithered along the bed of the forest, winding its way beneath a pine tree. Climbing upwards, it twirled around the trunk, moving ever so slowly, centimeter after centimeter, as it sought the “higher ground” where it could shimmy onto a tree branch and make its way closer to my eye level.

My ‘Power Animal’ from the Spirit World was a Snake

     There it was. My “power animal.” The one I entered the spirit realm to discover more of myself and my so-called guide. I didn’t care for him. He was a snake, for Christ’s sake. Tempter of Eve, manipulator of all manipulators, who was commanded by God Himself to forever crawl on his belly because of his part in getting two human beings ejected from Eden. What’s there to like about one of his kind?

     But then the snake took on a different form. Still a reptile, it wound its body around a staff-like pole. You know, the one that doctors have as a symbol to help all persons in need of care. It might be called a “Rod of Asclepius,” or a Caduceus.”

     The snake worked its charm on me. Felt more comfortable with him, knowing he would assist in bringing comfort to others through what Buddhists ask all to do with “loving kindness and compassion.”

On a Shamanic Journey to the Lower World

     The next thing I know, I was transported to the Middle Ages with trumpets blaring and banners of all colors flowing in the wind. Oh, I forgot to mention. I was on a Shamanic journey. Five of us Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) from the Philadelphia area got together on Friday for a trip led by a woman who was herself a Shaman in a previous life. She brought shakers to shake, sage to burn, and gave us papers to write our thoughts immediately upon coming out of our journey into the “Lower World.” Shamans tell us there are three worlds one can visit: the lower, the upper, and, I think, the middle, or the present, where one can kinda transport his or her spirit on our real-time plane.

     After our “space” was cleared of any bad spirits with the burning of the sage, we were instructed to visualize a hole in the trunk of a tree. It’s better if you can focus on a real one, which I did, having read a book and being on the lookout for such an “entry door.” Had no idea the trunk in a tree I saw on Butler Pike between Ambler and Conshohocken, PA, was going to play such a prominent role.

     Couldn’t get into it. The visualization trick, not the tree. Well, actually, the tree, also. Never did anything like this. Could not see the texture of a wall I was asked to look at. Damn. Couldn’t even see a wall. But I didn’t quit, and just as I “let go” I found myself coming out of a long tunnel, and “seeing‘ the exit hole behind me. Looked like a Hobbit hole, but one big enough for two or three guys to walk through abreast.

Trees Awaken a Mystical Feeling About the Snake

     Backing up, I saw a forest with lots of greenery. So many trees, I felt I was outside the Land of OZ, where you’d expect trees to start talking to you and throwing red apples your way. Brown pine cones covered the ground beneath a tree. I could smell the richness of grass and the pine as if dew had just settled.

    That’s when I saw movement. A slithering on the ground, which I paid no attention to at first, until I looked up and saw the snake twirling itself around a branch, awaiting my undivided attention. This was my power animal, the one that will guide me in the lower world? But, I don’t like snakes! Don’t think they like me, either.

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     Didn’t have time to anguish over the partnership. We were paired up, and I felt the snake open up a valley where troubadours sang and minstrels played harps and other musical instruments. Music sounded from everywhere, behind every bush, tree, and small stream in this spacious land of my mind. Soon, ladies and their lords rode by me on some of the strongest and largest horses I had ever seen! All covered with colorful clothes; some with matching headgear. These were the horses I’m talking about. You can just imagine what the lords and ladies were decked out in.

Saw the King Gesturing that All Was Well!

     And there came the king. Riding alone while raising his hand in a kingly gesture to assure his subjects that all was well in the land he ruled. But he wasn’t really a king. More like a Prince John from the days of Robin Hood. He was a usurper, one who tried to capture the crown while his brother, Richard the Lion-Hearted, was held prisoner in some Moorish jail near Jerusalem and the site of the latest crusade.

     I became a doctor to the prince. An Advisor. One who could ride alongside this man, of whom I was wary and could not trust. We talked. I planted an idea in his mind. Suggested that what he was presenting to the people was not for their good. That there was a better way for all to live. That he needed to “open his eyes” to see it. I knew the path he should take, but for the rest of humanity to follow, the one in power must realize this Truth himself. He must see reality without the blinders imposed by the make-believe world.

     “Come back,” I heard a voice call gently. “Return to the tunnel.” It was our Shaman recalling us to our world. I found the entrance and zipped right through, remembering subconsciously to “bring back” the rod or staff the snake had changed into. All was part of a dream, the creation of, perhaps, an imaginative mind. But, I am using that staff right now to bring you this tale for all to remember to “open your eyes.” There is another reality to live in and with.

Women Elevate all our Desire for God

Did Creator make a mistake in His design of women’s “purpose?

Are they on the earth to simply guide men to the Light above and share in the Love such a man might bring back with him to our earthly plane?

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Can ‘spiritual indigestion’ be all that bad?

Thought I was dying Monday morning.

Just finished eating a plateful of scrambled eggs, bacon and home fries, topped off with a honey bun, and had started in on a second cup of coffee when: “BAM.”

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Weekend Euphoria Needs Time to Set

The Greatest Weekend — No.  II

          * Uncertain if my true love would ever be mine, I fell to my knees . . . praying for her affection. It was . . . a Sunday.

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When coincidence occurs, look out & in!

Uncanny coincidences kept cropping up yesterday as I attended a gathering of one of those “Meet-Up” groups.

Got eerie, downright mystical-like, if you know what I mean.

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Conspiracy of Love to Heal Us All, Now!

Glenda “laid hands” on me; I lost track of who I was and why!

I had stubbed my two helping three guys move a heavy piano from one section of the room to another, when a leg got too close to the big toe, and I yelped like an injured animal, but held onto my section, maneuvering the mahogany-framed instrument to the center of this place of worship.

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‘Five Jaunts’ create a life-long harmony

The bottle of Listerine spilled, and the car smelled of antiseptic. A ’57 Chevy should never suffer such an indignation.

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Spiritual wars should end at a dinner table

Psalm 46:
 9 — He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.
10 — Be still and know that I am God.

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‘None else besides Him,’ ‘none besides me!’

There is none else besides Him.”

If I’m not for me, who is for me?”

There is none else besides me.”

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Looking for Self among all the wrong cards

Who am I? Am I this body, this mind, this soul? Perhaps, all three?

Body changes all the time, I’m told. Don’t have the same one I did a month ago, and it’s definitely gone through scillions of changes in the seven years I grew a completely new epidermis. That’s a new skin for any who’d like to compare man to a snake.

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Even on bad days, music can lift me higher

The Crossing” filled me with sounds of the Rapture last night as I surrendered to the harmonies some 25 voices offered me on entering Heaven.

I left my physical body and merged with music that only God could have imagined when He “thought” Creation into being.

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Won’t let go until animal instinct tells me to

My jaws clamp down, insuring I won’t let go of what I just uncovered. It’s taken me for what seems forever to get my teeth around it, and I won’t give up without a fight. Even if I get kicked. Again. Square in the face where it hurts, but I’ll get over it.

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To Helen of T, whose Heart Just Loves

I know of what you speak, about your ache.

I close my eyes and I feel the longing, the yearning that cannot be quenched, no matter what liquid I try to fill myself with. It’s just a substitute, a “pretender” that does little if anything to cool the fire, the pulsating magma that enflames a wound that seems never to heal in a million years.

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Hello! What would God do if He was you?

     Wouldn’t it be great to make a phone call and ask a receptionist to put you through to the Creator? The next time you have a problem, and you want to do the right thing, you could simply dial “G . . . O . . . D” long distance.

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Oleg guides me on a “Make ‘Believe’ ” path

Once upon a time . . .

  • I never met or knew anyone by the name of “Oleg.” If I heard the name in conversation, I’d conjure up someone strong as a tree and just as resilient, able to withstand the heavy winds and wildest rains, while gently offering shade to those seeking a trunk to lay a weary back upon.

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Unconditional love; language we all know

     (The baby looked up and, for the first time, acknowledged the Presence of another Being.

Unconditi0nal Love Was Beaming

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Labyrinth opens a hidden maze inside me

Walked a Labyrinth and stepped into Vietnam last night.

Trouble is . . . I liked it. Did not want to leave the maze despite what lay ahead. Strangely, I felt “safe” there. Secure in my “skills.” Didn’t want to come home. Just like years earlier.

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See you in a ‘next life’ Sombitch Rooster

(Cont’d from series on a-mean-rooster)

        Dropped Sombitch Rooster off in a wooded area near a weed and gravel-covered path leading to an Urban Homestead with rows of corn in what appeared to be a good-sized farm enclosed by a six-foot “mesh” fence and a locked gate. Before that, I removed the cage holding the chickens and young roosters from the back of my car, opened the door of the cage, and planned to throw the six fowl over the fence.

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Animals feel freed after Rooster’s absence

     An eerie silence greeted me as I opened my bathroom door, stepped inside, and looked at the window facing the yard.  I had just woken up. This, the first morning without a rooster in my daily life.

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Revenge could change, once ‘you’ change

      Never thought “revenge had anything good to say about itself. It’s a negative trait. Falls in with Anger, Rage and “getting even.”

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Step into a reality governed only by ‘Now’

Imagine there were Two Realities.

     The one you see, hear and experience daily. And another one, where you pass through a veil that causes Amnesia once you step all the way through. You no longer have a past. You have no concern for the future, since you’ve accepted the fact that all you really need in this “New” world will be provided.

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Taking First Steps on the Kabbalah Path

Let me give all of my Blog post readers a hint at what my next Spiritual Journey will Involve:

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Shiatsu workout straightens out back & Chi

     Back talk. Anyone experiencing pain might know where I’m headed. My back is talking loud and clear, and no matter what I do, I can’t shut it up.

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Goin’ to farm; pick blueberries barefooted

      Cousin Rosemarie Lieb.

     You opened my heart to something I closed years ago.

     Not ready to look inside. Almost, but not just yet.

     Your words touched me with a warmth I haven’t felt in a long time. They caressed me, and I liken it to a mother’s love and pride I couldn’t handle at the family reunion last Saturday.

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Explore the stillness found deep within you

     I find a Vibrant Life in Stillness.

    I “Come Alive” inside, as my body comes to a complete rest and I let the mind follow suit. Sound boring? It’s anything but! And it’s been one of the toughest things I’ve ever attempted.

    Couldn’t do it some 30 years ago when I tried to “halt” my active state of mind. Thought I “got through” and tamed the busy monkey once or twice, but it was wishful thinking on my part.

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Renewal can come Once a Month in Life

Once a Month, You Deserve to Die.”

Bizarre! Is this just a Curse?

Or a Wish for Good Fortune?

     Not sure where this came from. Was meditating on the subject of stillness,” and tracing my awareness of the world around and inside, when these words “arose.”

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Spirituality’s fun, whether you like it or not!

     Something’s wrong. I shouldn’t enjoy this much fun in Life.

     Laughing so hard, the five of us had to hush up, quiet down to prevent diners at the other restaurant tables from staring at our ruckus.

    What caused all the belly laughs and guffaws? God. Well, let’s say the Spirit of God. How about something ‘Spiritual, but not Religious?’ Would you believe “Mystical?”

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A Hagel/Westergom union fits my granny

    The only grandfather I ever knew was a hobo.

     He rode the rails from East to West Coast, eating chicken and other foods he’d gather” during the years crossing this great land, even ending up in Alaska, where he prospected for gold.

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Don Quixote battles PTSD in Philly courts

     I never felt more like Don Quixote than when I represented a woman charged with a crime.

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‘Evidence for Mister God?’ Look Around

Vivienne, you asked what I liked about the book “To Mister God, this is Anna.”  All of the following are the direct quotes of the author Fryn, also known as Sydney Hopkins:

     “Mister God wants you to be ‘I Am,’ like he is.”

     “This is the curious nature of Mister God: that even while he is at the center of all things, he waits outside us and knocks to come in. It is we who open the door; Mister God doesn’t break it down and come in; no, he knocks and waits. Continue reading

The Gospel According to Bobby Darin

Wasn’t sure a Gospel Song would fit in with Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) at a music appreciation meet last week.

     Still can’t understand why I chose Bobby Darin, the “Splish Splash” originator, to represent my musical taste. We were encouraged by the hosts, a young couple, to bring music that meant a lot to us, perhaps meditative offerings and/or those pieces that represented a special time in our lives.

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SPCA Agent Ensures Care for all Animals

The SPCA Raided my Property Last Week.

     Their probe followed closely on the heels of a police officer who paid us an unsolicited visit.

     A neighbor complained of the Sombitch Rooster, who could not keep crowing to a minimum and has raised such a ruckus, so we have to find him a new home, away from the Philadelphia area, and some less dense place like New Jersey.

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Answer is Within, 2nd Coming Proclaims

The Gospel Writers got it All Wrong!

Those are the words Jesus said on reappearing in public in 2012.

The Kingdom of God is Within, He added.

But each of us must seek it ourselves through ourselves.

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‘Divine Madness’ Reaches Out To Me Daily

Divine Madness.”

     When I first saw the term, I thought of Zorba the Greek, played by Anthony Quinn, who embraced the fullness of life through robust emotions and actions. To laugh in the face of hardship and spit in the face of death, enjoying that special moment of life as if it was the last, and to hell with what anyone thinks.

     To hell with negative thoughts. Live Life with the smile God meant us to project outwardly as well as within.

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Connect to ‘Mother’ for Enlightenment

                         I saw the “Observer” of my Thoughts the other day.

     Watched from within. Saw “me” facilitating and acting on all the senses. “I nudged away a thought, then focused on the feeling of breath at the top of my nasal passage. Tasted the slight chemical taint of eye drops I had placed in my left eye minutes earlier. And, I listened to the soft sounds of a budgie chirping in the distance. 

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All’s well that ends well with a Not Guilty

Part II cont’d from jury-trial-first-day-on-the-job

     Sometimes, while trying a case to a Jury of 12 people, a transformation would take place when I least expected it.

     I’d begin to believe my criminal client had been truthful when he told me he was innocent and didn’t do what he was charged with by Philadelphia police.

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Listen to the sigh; might be saying ‘Let Go’

     I feel a bit of God in a good healthy sigh.

     It could be that all animals do, and it helps us relax for a millisecond before exhaling. The longer I exhale, the longer I feel the Presence.

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City differences create a variety in my life

Cherry-Chocolate

Soda

I’d give anything to taste the flavor of a that drink again.

     Not the ones from a bottle. A soda fountain drink! Nothing compares to the delicious mixture of “realchocolate” and cherry syrups combined with that seltzer-like substance that produced a drink that could have originated only in Paradise.

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Al Brown Taught me a Lesson of a Lifetime

I always looked up to Al Brown. I met him when I was only eight-and-a-half years old in the 1950s. Nowadays, I guess you would call him a “community organizer,” someone in the neighborhood a person could turn to with questions about the block, the new and older people who lived on your street. Like that section of Brewerytown where I grew up in North Philadelphia.

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Seeing improves with my cataract removal

     My “Fishbowl” Look is Gone.

     So is my astigmatism. Not to mention a cataract in my left eye.

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Bliss arises in cherishing of another’s woes

     An African American woman showed me how to take on the suffering of the world during a five-day retreat on perfecting perpetual peace in my soul.

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‘Letting go’ today frees me for tomorrow

     Taking a step today that scares me. Going to become an “Initiate Buddhist at a morning ceremony. Do a prostration, touch my forehead to the floor, and recognize a Power greater than myself.

     That’ll be the easy part. Saw enough Catholic priests drop to the church floor during a 40-hour service that I’m used to seeing American Buddhist ladies and gentlemen do the ritual at the Chenrezig Tibetan Buddhist Center of Philadelphia.

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‘Do the right thing’–do what’s right for you

Part II from Escaping-Brewerytown

     The moment of truth came down to one question: “Who else was with you?”

     I looked to the floor and didn’t answer until the head of a juvenile aid panel from Philadelphia Family Court asked me to speak up.

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Escaping Brewerytown in 1 piece not easy

     I never took my eyes off the gun. The man’s hand shook. I was afraid it would go off. Raising my own hands, I prayed that he would not shoot, and said “I’m coming out,” slowly climbing out of the window, placing one foot on the ground and then the other as I exited the ACME supermarket warehouse building two blocks from my home. Continue reading

Love generates within for no reason at all

I Tasted Love before I ever “Entered” an Age of Reason.

     I had not reached 7, but I remember it as if it was yesterday. I was attending a birthday party for a friend of my brother, John, who is two years older than me. Her name was Carolyn, and the love I felt came from her sister, Regina Gross, who the older kids enjoyed “fixing up” with me, her school classmate.

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‘Garlic’s imprint’ holds many limitations

     A friend dreamed she could not swim well in water and had to return to the shore or face peril. It seems the dream reflected her real life. (See “To Be Me.”) She said she was not a very good swimmer, and she wondered why — even in one’s dream — we impose such limitations on ourselves?

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‘Sound Bath’ Calms & Heals us with Love

      I feel a healing begin, as tears form, and I am so grateful to release what’s building inside — something so wonderful it becomes too good to contain.

     I wish I were bigger. I’d have a greater capacity to handle the joy that’s flowing to all parts of my body. It’s like a liquid, this healing I feel, almost palpable like an elixir that cures each and every doubt, concern, and thought from one’s past or future.

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Love & compassion’s for all God’s creatures

     Did not know what a Buddhist sangha could mean to me, until four of us aspiring students focused on a multi-colored insect at lunch, discussed its past and future life-aspects, and showed compassion to a sentient being whom we might have swatted away before gaining our insight on Sunday.

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Freedom of Religion depends on religion

     Read some comments attacking the Dalai Lama on someone’s Blog which championed freedom of religion on its website.

     Noticed it also pushed for a vote against gay marriage in California.   

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I’m heartily sorry for having offended Thee

     “Michael J,

     The biggest lie you ever told was that you could say something about sexual orientation and not hurt someone whose way of life might be different from yours. You said you lied when you told an ex-girlfriend that you were gay to avoid having sex with someone you were not ready to have a long-term commitment.

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Courtroom awakens karma understanding

 One of the most humbling times in my life occurred in Court.

   Philadelphia Police Sgt. Washington motioned to me that he wanted to talk. This was odd, I represented the “other side” as a public defender whose client was the defendant charged in an auto theft case. Washington was the arresting police officer whose testimony would ensure a conviction.

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Values don’t change in impermanent world

      I was 18 when I asked Janet to marry me, and she turned my request down flat.

     We were never romantically involved, even though I’m sure a mutual love would have grown out of our teenage friendship.

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Saigon Lady offers wisdom at check out

       Saigon Lady taught me about Life and Buddhism last night.   

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Hit upside the head provides a life lesson

     The detective hit me across the face with a back hand, and I knew I was in trouble. Blood formed on my lower lip. I let it flow, not taking my eyes from this man who gained my immediate attention with a force he evidently knew how to use on some wise-ass kid not being straight with him.

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PTSD Creates New ‘Cause and Condition’

Causes and Conditions.

          That’s what Life is all about.

          Causes and Conditions.

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Remember to enjoy the ride getting ‘there’

        I entered the “Twilight Zone” yesterday. 

    Drove full of gusto to complete a task before visiting a doctor in the early afternoon. Only to realize by the time I turned onto the major road, I forgot where I was going.

     And worse, why! 

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Getting ‘Fired’ up for Singing Debut on TV

      Mister JR Johnson fired me when he caught me entertaining” friends at his place of business.

     He waited until the end of the shift on Friday and told me my days (actually, nights) as a stripper were over. I tried to explain, apologize for my actions, but that evening it was to no avail.

     It hung over me that weekend. But did little to dim one of the brightest moments of my life.

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Cock-Sure Rooster Leads in Race to Hades

      They stood eye-ball to eye-ball, only inches away.

     One stretched, only to see the other match the move immediately, with nary an eye blink, nor a muscle flinch.

     There was a meanness in their beady eyes. And if looks could kill, both would be lying dead where they stood.

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Time to get back into the swim of life now

Thirty-Six Laps!

     The “kid” still got it. Swam 36 laps this afternoon, the first time I’ve exercised in four months.

     What? It’s been four months since I been to LA Fitness. Four months since I hit the Olympic-size pool, take in the whirlpool, as well as spend time in the sauna? Actually, spent more than 15 minutes in the sauna to get rid of all the “toxins” people tell me I need to get out of my system.

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Mary’s Tears help Battle Flashbacks of War

       The only thing that seemed to help Mary was the tears.

    The act of crying seemed to “loosen up” and cushion the fear and anxiety that would strike her unexpectantly. Every time she’d hear a siren, she’d feel her chest tighten, her palms sweat, and her heartbeat race. “Twenty minutes” she’d say and look at a watch or a clock. It will all be over in 20 minutes. The world as she knew it would all be over. Destroyed by nuclear war.

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Immigration Stories Hit Closer to Home

  •       Inspired by an open letter my friend Kim prepared for politicians, I started to think about some immigrants I have known in my life. My favorite was my dad, as well as my aunts and uncles from Greece, followed closely by my grandmother on my mother side, who came to America from a town in Germany or Hungary, depending on the political map of that day. Continue reading

Answers to Questions about Vietnam War

This Veteran tells a Student about the War

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Old love songs morph into new spirituals

Never Knew Some Songs were Spiritual

Check Them Out:

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A soldier bows in salute to heartfelt words

A Soldier, and No One Else!

It was the soldier who gave you freedom of the press, not the reporter

It was the soldier, not the poet, who gave you freedom of expression

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Light shines here from a tip of the candle

     Veterans Can Share Understanding of War

      ‘Veterans are the light at the tip of the candle, illuminating the way for the whole nation.   

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50 chews per bite is goal, not meals’ end!

The Outcome Doesn’t Matter

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Imperfect clergy always been kinda cool

I could never be a clergyman.

I curse too much.

Damn it!

     See. I can’t go 12 words without letting out some sort of “expleted deleted word,” even one as mild as a “damn.”

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War guilt haunts veteran year after year

Premonition of Something Bad Arises

     I knew something was wrong when I saw the radio operator’s face. He handed me the mike attached to the bulky radio strapped on his back. The private, new in-country, made no eye contact, and was hesitant in his actions.

     I identified myself by a “call sign” and heard someone say in a code that the leader of the third platoon had just been wounded, and that I was ordered to move my first platoon to give him assistance.

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Merging Two into One Okay, Michael J

“Belief in God, and

following Buddhism

is not incompatible.”

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Grief delayed me while in military service

I was in the Army less than a week when the news hit me. I had my head shaven; my civilian clothes exchanged for fatigue pants and a shirt, not to mention boots and headgear, something I had never worn before in my life.

Got drafted on the Third of June, the day that Billie Jo McAllister jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge! I was 19 years old in 1968 — knew no one — and was away from my Philadelphia, PA, home for the first time.

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Hudson River magic calls me to Omega

      Got a check for $9 in the mail yesterday. It was for travel expenses on a trip I took five months ago. It came to me like magic. I must have lost it in the IKEA store of Conshohocken, and it just appeared out of nowhere for my return trip.

Veterans with PTSD Invited to Omega Institute

     Back to the Omega Institute for Holistic Studies. A campus in Rhinebeck, NY, where I will return today (April 21, 2010) for another retreat on PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder).

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Be ‘Gentle,’ not Meek, to Inherit the Earth

      Ever meet someone who wanted to grow up “Meek?”

     You know, as in “the Meek‘ shall inherit the Earth?”

     “Eat your Wheaties, and you too can become as Meek as Babe Ruth,” is a jingle I bet you never heard out of Madison Avenue. Or how about The Army builds meek men one body at a time?”

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Old warriors share PTSD woes with young

      Never thought of myself as a “warrior.” Wasn’t that a term used by Third World tribes or ancient civilizations building empires on one war after another?

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