Truth once hidden usually surfaces later

State Trooper Using Hypnosis for Investigation

     That was the headline for one of the strangest cases I ever reported.

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Seeking the ‘Bliss Queen’ in Philadelphia

I wanted so much to be the Queen’s Concert.

     But at what age? What stage of her life called out to me the most, as we, the audience members, watched her grow into a Spiritual goddess, one I desired to be like, to become with as One?

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Buy yourself a friend – read his good word

Make yourself a Rav, and buy for yourself a friend.”
— Rabbi Yehoshua Ben Perachya

     Could never relate to the old “Church Lady” that seemed so righteous and God-fearing.

     You know, the one that constantly quoted the Bible and swore everything you ever wanted to know about anything could be found in “The Good Book.”

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The Great Awakening can be hard on a guy

Ashamed. Impure. Dirty.

     All these feelings flashed through me as I slowly came out of what seemed like a trance, halfway between sleep and wakefulness, only to notice growth at a part of my body where there was none before.

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Swimming meditation floats troubles away

Swimming meditation can work. You heard it here first. One can “nudge” out most thoughts and focus on the “here and now” as you swim one lap after another. I did. Got so relaxed, I lost count for a while, but then didn’t care how many lengths I had traversed.

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Saying ‘I Love You’ Over & Over Again!

     “I love you” was not in the way you said it, but how you said it.   

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Recovering from my road rage confession

Bless me Father, for I have sinned. I have cursed out drivers on the open highway and prayed their mothers had never conceived them. In or at of wedlock, those dirty b . . . . . .

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You’re ‘Over the Hill,’ Once You Hit Forty

      Requested a dollar coffee at a Burger King last night and the Gidget-like youngster asked if she could serve a “Senior.”

     No, I replied, not wanting anything more or less then what’s on a “dollar menu” for cup I could refill, if need be. I handed over $1.06 in change, placing it carefully on the counter in front of the short blonde teenage girl. “It’s 50 cents,” she quipped, all bright and full of sunshine. “It’s a senior cup.”

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Living like I’m one of ‘All God’s Creatures’

I dove into a World of Make Believe, changing from one past life to another while underwater and on land yesterday.

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Can Hell Actually Be Just ‘Other People?’

      Felt disconnected from the World as I knew it yesterday. 

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A tough road makes journey a little easier

     When my father spoke Greek with the disciplinarian of the Catholic High School where I played hooky at age 14, I thought I had it made.

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Impeachment turns a loser into a winner

Each day for twenty years, the spirit of Don Quixote welcomed me into my law office. This picture hung above my desk reminding me that it was the “impossible cases” a good public defender relished. The ones you didn’t expect to win, but somehow, now and then, you’d convince a jury to see the facts your way, which in most cases, was the right way.

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Bestowing spirit & essence to a new friend

I told someone I’d give up my life for them. And, I meant it.

    I was so low, I was willing to forego this body and offer my spirit to someone, anyone who’d have a greater chance of gaining enlightenment than me. Give to someone who was nearing to what Kabbalists call the final “correction” of all of one’s egotistical desires.

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Forgive warrior’s defense of the sensitive

You invited me to your House, and I broke confidence in you.

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Love Thy Neighbor: Don’t burn his book

     Heard some Christian minister was planning to set fire to a Muslim Holy Book, the Quran, to mark the Anniversary of 9-11 this Saturday, September 11, 2010.

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Walk a Labyrinth full with love & no desire

All I want to do, is Give. Not Take.

Give without seeking a thing in return. Oh, I’ll get pleasure out of the deal. But I’ll put a lid on it. Screen out the joy that can overwhelmingly fill me, and direct the bulk of that feeling to another. Deflect it to one needing nurturing that only a mother’s love could offer her youngest child.

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Amy, you smile & I find pure paradise!

Thank You Amy. Let the Good Times Roll!

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Sit and do nothing, but only do it better

Sit and do Nothing — Better.     

     You don’t know how hard this is for me. To do nothing! Forget about the better part. The word “better implies you’ve been able to do nothing” sometime in the past. Or that you can do nothing “better” than someone else. 

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Pitching pennies provides pinch per police

  • Corner Lounging. Police picked us up more times than I can remember simply for hanging out and making a little too much noise, perhaps, with a little too much profanity.
  • I didn’t. Use profanity. Not much. And when I did, I think it meant something. Not like today, when the “F” word is bantered around too freely. And way too often. And, that’s in so-called “polite society.”

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Radio Plays to My No. 1 Heart’s Desire

     Music touched an emotional chord in me that may have been different from most folks.

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Abraham, Martin & John Live On Within

Rain pours on me outside, while soft music warms me on the inside. “Abraham, Martin, and John,” the song, plays from this relatively new gadget called a portable, hand-held, transistor radio.

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Guest Post’s Embarrassing Announcement

     What’s the difference between Shame and Embarrassment? Are they joined at the hip? Like twins?

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The shame of it all starts an upward ascent

     Be careful what you wish for. You could get your heart’s desire and wish you had never asked for it in the first place.

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Love Streams in All Good Consciousness

     How do I explain the feelings that have come “over me?” They’re like ocean waves ebbing and flowing in each breath.        

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College Life repeats itself each generation

Sat next to a long hair, skinny, “Hippie” guy at an orientation in a community college yesterday, and felt thrown back to a time years ago, sitting cross-legged on the floor across from a similar fellow wondering what the hell I was doing there.

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Attract Them to a Higher Calling in Life

Prostitute for God.

Is it heresy to suggest such a thing?

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St. Michael strikes and heals all at once

     I felt like Alice falling in the hole after chasing a White Rabbit. But, falling “upwards” defying the laws of Gravity and Rational Sense.

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Act of Contrition Helps Regain My Purity

Got Blanket Absolution yesterday. And, it felt so good, I became a 12-year-old again. Ready to face the world with a clear conscious and a pure heart.

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I See You for the Very First Time, Don’t I?

  • I see You more and more each day. All I need do, is look for You. Kinda scrunch up my mind a bit, squint, and let my Self go.

Try to “feel” You. And I do! All Blessed You. In just the right amount to fill a soul that wishes it were bigger, larger to contain more and more of Your Love that’s omnipresent, all around me. And in me.

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I ‘intend’ nothing but positive bestowals

     How do you explain “unexplainable” events?

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Willie, 20 years later, I still mourn you

      Although you “passed on” after your 17th birthday, you’ll remain alive for me forever. I see you in my dreams. I “feel” your presence as I walk with you, watch you, and hear the footsteps on the steps leading from the dining room to the bedroom upstairs.

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Suffocate? Let go of control & open up self

     Grace suffocated and I retaliated by smashing my ego to help free up her passageway during group meditation this morning.

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Pain endures from struggles in a ‘Back’ Life

The pain feels like someone thrust a spear in my back. That I was in battle. At the city of Troy. Fighting with fellow Greeks for the foolish prize of a minor King’s run-a-way, but lovely, wife, Helen. She with a face that will launch a thousand ships.

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Hawk carries HSPs to their highest ideals

     The hawk glides across the sky, soaring high above us as the first person to notice shouts, “there’s one.” Like children, we stare toward the heavens, at the beautiful blue sky. A normally humid August has graced us with a mild and glorious summer day, blending light breezes and the scent of flowers that drift our way from below the wooden platform we look out from.

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School boss drives Vietnam veteran nuts

Felt I was back in war maneuvering through a mine field called the new educational system yesterday.

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Unexplained ‘Pull’ leading me back Home

     A gentle “pull” manifested in my Life recently. I noticed it last night while driving and wanted no more than to live in each passing moment.

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‘I confess!’ I cut school with Franny O

     I’m going to confess. I played hooky in seventh grade and refused to “squeal” on the kid I stayed out of class with that day.

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Nature Provides Bird’s Eye View of Living

     There’s a true “pecking order” that’s developing in my back yard. And all I have to do is be patient and watch it unfold moment by moment.

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Kabbalah ‘Receiving’ Helps Me in ‘Giving’

     How can I divert pleasure I “receive” into pleasure I can “give?”

     Got that? 

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You can’t make promotions your life’s goal

     You can keep the promotion. Wouldn’t take it, even if offered. Not if I have to make “achievements” my aim, to set a new “goal” in Life.

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“Start Over’ the instant you feel a need to

Start over. That’s all I gotta do . . . Say it to myself and simply “START OVER!”

Lying in bed with one crazy, mixed up thought after another, I told myself to “start over.” Did not know what I meant. But I did mean it.

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Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers

(This story was created in October 2009 but not published in its entirety until now.)

 It’s just like heaven . . . Being here with you . . . You’re like an Angel. Too good to be true. When You are near me.  My heart skips a beat.  I can hardly stand on. My own two feet.  Because I Love You; I Love You, I Do.  ‘Angel Baby’. My ‘Angel Baby’. Oh, Ooh, I Love You, Oh, Ooh, I Do . . .  No One Could Love You . . .  Like I Do!            

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Union Activity Draws This Reporter Away

(Originally Cont’d Oct. 3, 2009, Angels Part V, Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers)

     Career Paths Change Here and There

I also got involved with the Newspaper Guild and our local at the newspaper level. I took part in union negotiations, usually being one of the lone holdouts to ensure that some clerk or underpaid dispatcher could get a few extra dollars in their paycheck. I enjoyed the give and take and the high drama that developed at contract time. Will there be a strike? How much is the company willing to contribute to the pension? Will there be “givebacks” this time? How secure will I be with a new contract?

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College Major Guided By a Little Mistake

(Originally Cont’d Oct. 3, 2009, as Angels Part IV, Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers)

     What happened in the Vietnam War is another story, but my next Angel appeared as a burly Scottish neighbor of my parents, who had moved from the inner city of Philadelphia to one of its suburbs, Wayne, Pa. “What will you major in at college, Laddy?” the neighbor asked when I visited my folks advising them that I would be using their address to attend the Delaware County Community College. (I lived outside the county and would have had to pay double the amount if I didn’t fudge the location of my domicile.)

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Shared My Music with a Younger Group

(Originally Cont’d from Oct. 3, 2009, as Angels Part III, Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers)

     ‘Oldies‘ Pave Way for My Singing Rock Group

     I got exposed to “Oldies but Goodies” in my late teenage years. That’s when I started to recruit guys my age, none of whom had been exposed to the Black neighborhoods where Jackie Toy and I met others to sing. I introduced them to “oldies” they had never heard of, particularly from their mostly Lilly White AM Radio Stations like WIBG or WIP.

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Plato’s Alegory Calls to Me in the War Zone

Opening to Philosophy in a Bombed-Out Bunker

(Originally Cont’d Oct. 3, 2009, as Angels Part VII, Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers)

     In a few days, my subconscious worked over my dream of Socrates. I can remember and once again say the name of the second gentleman as none other than Plato, the Greek teacher who dealt with reality, with the spirit, and with life beyond what our senses simply pick up.

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Criminal Attorney Practice Calls Out to Me

Originally Cont’d Oct. 3, 2009, as Angels Part VI, Angels Appear as Earthly Messengers)

   Experience Begins in the Courtroom

 But by then, I had my first taste of courtroom advocacy and man did I become energized! Trial work involved cross-examination, closing arguments, and the ability to “argue” in front of a captive audience. Paul Messing, my advocacy instructor, became my next Angel when he directed me into becoming a “litigator,” presenting me with the award of “Barrister” for the best advocate and providing an “in” for an interview with the Philadelphia Defender Association, which had just been named the best in the country.

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Angel Helps Me to Harmonize in a Group

Angels II (Originally continued on Oct.3, 2009, from Angels, Appear as Earthly Messengers)

   Being In the Moment is Healthy for Everyone

 I had suffered from a cold when I closed my eyes and settled into my seat for meditation. I was hurting and aching from the illness, perhaps even having a slight fever, when I rapidly descended into a deep zone. My thoughts came to a stop, my shoulders, neck, and other parts of a tense body grew limp and thoroughly relaxed. I slowly felt the mind and the body joining in a “slow down,” where I would find that state of nothingness that allows me to simply Be in The Moment.

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Concealing & finding Self –a life-long effort

     Hello! Anybody here? It sure is dark inside. Like a huge cavern with hardly any light.

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Falling in love with the Love of Your Life

     Fell head over heels in love the past few weeks. Didn’t want to do it. Had always gotten “hurt” in relationships, knowing from the start they’d come to an end one day. Love seemed to change that way. To peter out. End not with a “bang,” but with a “whimper.”

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Nysiros holds secrets of life and death

     I’ll never know what drove Anthoula to take her own life.

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Angels re-enter when you’re open to ’em

     I started seeing angels again. No, hold off on the straight jacket, don’t reserve a room at an asylum. I’m not totally crazy. Yet.

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‘Open your eyes’ to journey of Lifetime

      The snake slithered along the bed of the forest, winding its way beneath a pine tree. Climbing upwards, it twirled around the trunk, moving ever so slowly, centimeter after centimeter, as it sought the “higher ground” where it could shimmy onto a tree branch and make its way closer to my eye level.

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Women Elevate all our Desire for God

     Did Creator make a mistake in His design of women’s “purpose?

     Are they on the earth to simply guide men to the Light above and share in the Love such a man might bring back with him to our earthly plane?

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Can ‘spiritual indigestion’ be all that bad?

Thought I was dying Monday morning.

Just finished eating a plateful of scrambled eggs, bacon and home fries, topped off with a honey bun, and had started in on a second cup of coffee when: “BAM.”

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Imagine how to ‘Copy’ & ‘Paste’ a Graphic

(How to insert graphics into your Writing)

     So, you want to know how to add a “picture” to the story?     

     Ok, I think I can help you.

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Accident leads to a fowl, self-discovery

     Hearing the screech of tires, I react quickly. Push foot to the brake and veer to the right of the car in front of me.

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Weekend Euphoria Needs Time to Set

The Greatest Weekend — No.  II

          * Uncertain if my true love would ever be mine, I fell to my knees . . . praying for her affection. It was . . . a Sunday.

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When Coincidence Occurs, Look Out & In!

Uncanny coincidences kept cropping up yesterday as I attended a gathering of one of those “Meet-Up” groups.

     Got eerie, downright mystical-like, if you know what I mean.

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Conspiracy of Love to Heal Us All, Now!

     Glenda “laid hands” on me; I lost track of who I was and why!

     I had stubbed my toe helping three guys move a heavy piano from one section of the room to another, when a leg got too close to the big toe, and I yelped like an injured animal, but held onto my section, maneuvering the mahogany-framed instrument to the center of this place of worship.

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‘Five Jaunts’ create a life-long harmony

     The bottle of Listerine spilled, and the car smelled of antiseptic. A ‘57 Chevy should never suffer such an indignation.

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Monkey See, and, Alas, Monkey Will Do!

      The fool showed up uninvited to the Wildwood, NJ, beach house and created a mess good folk hardly talk about now-a-days. He sat “Indian style” on the living room rug with Billy Kane, both about the same age, 18 to 19. There were two or three other guys drinking beer as Billy passed ‘em around.

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Spiritual wars should end at a dinner table

Psalm 46:
 9 — He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.
10 — Be still and know that I am God.

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‘None else besides Him,’ ‘none besides me!’

There is none else besides Him.”

If I’m not for me, who is for me?”

There is none else besides me.”

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Looking for Self among all the wrong cards

     Who am I? Am I this body, this mind, this soul? Perhaps, all three?

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Even on bad days, music can lift me higher

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Won’t let go until animal instinct tells me to

     My jaws clamp down, insuring I won’t let go of what I just uncovered. It’s taken me for what seems forever to get my teeth around it, and I won’t give up without a fight. Even if I get kicked. Again. Square in the face where it hurts, but I’ll get over it.

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To Helen of T, whose Heart Just Loves

     I know of what you speak, about your ache.

     I close my eyes and I feel the longing, the yearning that cannot be quenched, no matter what liquid I try to fill myself with. It’s just a substitute, a “pretender” that does little if anything to cool the fire, the pulsating magma that enflames a wound that seems never to heal in a million years.

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Hello! What would God do if He was you?

     Wouldn’t it be great to make a phone call and ask a receptionist to put you through to the Creator? The next time you have a problem, and you want to do the right thing, you could simply dial “G . . . O . . . D” long distance.

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Oleg guides me on a “Make ‘Believe’ ” path

Once upon a time . . .

  • I never met or knew anyone by the name of “Oleg.” If I heard the name in conversation, I’d conjure up someone strong as a tree and just as resilient, able to withstand the heavy winds and wildest rains, while gently offering shade to those seeking a trunk to lay a weary back upon.

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Unconditional love; language we all know

     (The baby looked up and, for the first time, acknowledged the Presence of another Being.

Unconditi0nal Love Was Beaming

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Labyrinth opens a hidden maze inside me

Walked a Labyrinth and stepped into Vietnam last night.

Trouble is . . . I liked it. Did not want to leave the maze despite what lay ahead. Strangely, I felt “safe” there. Secure in my “skills.” Didn’t want to come home. Just like years earlier.

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See you in a ‘next life’ Sombitch Rooster

(Cont’d from series on a-mean-rooster)

        Dropped Sombitch Rooster off in a wooded area near a weed and gravel-covered path leading to an Urban Homestead with rows of corn in what appeared to be a good-sized farm enclosed by a six-foot “mesh” fence and a locked gate. Before that, I removed the cage holding the chickens and young roosters from the back of my car, opened the door of the cage, and planned to throw the six fowl over the fence.

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Animals feel freed after Rooster’s absence

     An eerie silence greeted me as I opened my bathroom door, stepped inside, and looked at the window facing the yard.  I had just woken up. This, the first morning without a rooster in my daily life.

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Always keep an eye out for mean roosters

     He flew at my head and clawed at my eye. Blood seeped out the left side of the nose, cheek, and the right ear, where the rooster attacked, getting in one last “lick” at me.

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Speaking truth ain’t easy but always right

     “What’s wrong with the Truth?” the White Knight asked.

     “The truth shall set him free,” the Black Knight added.

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Reading and writing open different ways

     Who are we but a bunch of words? Letters strung together, broken up in efforts to make sense of a message we try to convey.

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Revenge could change, once ‘you’ change

      Never thought “revenge had anything good to say about itself. It’s a negative trait. Falls in with Anger, Rage and “getting even.”

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Soft pretzels, a Philadelphia comfort food

     “You want mutard?,” the Pretzel Man would ask as he took your nickel and broke off three little “figure eight” soft pretzels. “Yes,” I’d say, mouthwatering for a topping that would make Philadelphia soft pretzels one of the great snacks of the Western World.

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Step into a reality governed only by ‘Now’

Imagine there were Two Realities.

     The one you see, hear and experience daily. And another one, where you pass through a veil that causes Amnesia once you step all the way through. You no longer have a past. You have no concern for the future, since you’ve accepted the fact that all you really need in this “New” world will be provided.

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Taking First Steps on the Kabbalah Path

Let me give all of my Blog post readers a hint at what my next Spiritual Journey will Involve:

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Shiatsu workout straightens out back & Chi

     Back talk. Anyone experiencing pain might know where I’m headed. My back is talking loud and clear, and no matter what I do, I can’t shut it up.

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Goin’ to farm; pick blueberries barefooted

      Cousin Rosemarie Lieb.

          You opened my heart to something I closed years ago.

          Not ready to look inside. Almost, but not just yet.

Admiration Pours out from my Cousin’s Heart

         “He wrote speeches for the governor,” I heard you whisper to our Cousin John Westergom of whom I have not spoken more than 20 words in the past 40 years. I detected a hint of, I don’t know, admiration or acknowledgment of an achievement I don’t normally dwell on, one I almost forgot. You spoke of something I had tried to forget. My past.

     Don’t want to look at it. Or focus on it, the so-called achievements, that is. My future’s going to be so much brighter. The best years of my life are still ahead. Don’t want to sit on my laurels as if Life has passed me by, following a “retirement” of sorts with this PTSD disability. I still hope to do so much more and give plenty of myself to humanity, if only in some humble way.

Fellowship Allows me to Write a Speech for Governor

     You reminded me of something my mother might have said with pride . . . that her son, Michael J Contos, had gotten a Finnegan Fellowship to study state government in Pennsylvania, thereby insuring a dinner at an awards banquet with then PA Governor Milton J Shapp.

     I had studied journalism at the Community College of Delaware County, and was placed in the “public relations” division of Penn DOT, the state department of transportation, where I wrote a speech for the governor, several press releases and provided the “voice over” for a television newscast introducing new buses that “kneeled” to let persons with wheel-chairs enter public transit buses.

     “This is Michael Contos, WGOL, Harrisburg,” I said in my one and only broadcast news report.

Governor Uses Each Word Verbatim

     It was an achievement, writing for the governor. He used the speech verbatim, and I made copies for my resume of “news clippings.” Never did get a copy of the voice-over. The VCR was not in wide use — if in use at all — in the early ’70s.

     I wanted to tell you, “It was no big deal.” The kid from a tough Philadelphia neighborhood, Brewerytown, made good despite his working-class roots. You see, I simply dug out a copy of an earlier speech the governor had given, brought it up to date, and put a new spin on it by adding a few of my words that “Democrats and Republicans alike will join in the celebration” for the construction feat.

     Also wanted to tell you I wrote a fictional short story that summer, two years out of the Vietnam War. The writing got a second-place award in an Altoona, PA, contest. (Again, no “biggie,” even though it got coverage at Temple University when a teacher published the news in the school’s “house organ.” That’s newspaper jargon for a company-operated newsletter.)

Trying to Become ‘Worthy’ of My Goals

     You’re the only one of my extended family I feel such a “Motherly” connection with, if that is the right word for it. The type of connection I denied myself growing up, for fear of resting before I could reach some goal, some summit I wanted to ascend to prove I was . . . worthy . . . as a person . . . as a man.

     I missed out. Stayed focused too much and too long on nothing but achievements. Now, I want to share those stories I minimized in the past; I didn’t want anyone to think I got a “Big Head.” Still don’t, and that’s one reason why I’ve been reluctant to share. Afraid I’ll see how unimportant it really was . . . that I was just chasing windmills, if you know what I mean.

     Want to visit the farm where Aunt Betty and Uncle Lenny showed us so much love; want to walk barefoot in the sandy roads leading to nearby Atlantic City. And pick lots of blueberries until the proverbial cows come home. Thanks for keeping the light on for this drifter, this black sheep of the family. Hope there’s still time enough for us . . .

Explore the stillness found deep within you

     I find a Vibrant Life in Stillness.

    I “Come Alive” inside, as my body comes to a complete rest and I let the mind follow suit. Sound boring? It’s anything but! And it’s been one of the toughest things I’ve ever attempted.

    Couldn’t do it some 30 years ago when I tried to “halt” my active state of mind. Thought I “got through” and tamed the busy monkey once or twice, but it was wishful thinking on my part.

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Renewal can come Once a Month in Life

Once a Month, You Deserve to Die.”

Bizarre! Is this just a Curse?

Or a Wish for Good Fortune?

     Not sure where this came from. Was meditating on the subject of stillness,” and tracing my awareness of the world around and inside, when these words “arose.”

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Spirituality’s fun, whether you like it or not!

     Something’s wrong. I shouldn’t enjoy this much fun in Life.

     Laughing so hard, the five of us had to hush up, quiet down to prevent diners at the other restaurant tables from staring at our ruckus.

    What caused all the belly laughs and guffaws? God. Well, let’s say the Spirit of God. How about something ‘Spiritual, but not Religious?’ Would you believe “Mystical?”

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A Hagel/Westergom union fits my granny

    The only grandfather I ever knew was a hobo.

     He rode the rails from East to West Coast, eating chicken and other foods he’d gather” during the years crossing this great land, even ending up in Alaska, where he prospected for gold.

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Don Quixote battles PTSD in Philly courts

     I never felt more like Don Quixote than when I represented a woman charged with a crime.

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War stories penetrate a family gathering

    The knife “broke skin” and went an inch into my back.

     I felt the pain all the way to the emergency room, believing the knife was still lodged there. I could not tell . . . I dare not turn to try to see or touch it.

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‘Evidence for Mister God?’ Look Around

Vivienne, you asked what I liked about the book “To Mister God, this is Anna.”  All of the following are the direct quotes of the author Fryn, also known as Sydney Hopkins:

     “Mister God wants you to be ‘I Am,’ like he is.”

     “This is the curious nature of Mister God: that even while he is at the center of all things, he waits outside us and knocks to come in. It is we who open the door; Mister God doesn’t break it down and come in; no, he knocks and waits. Continue reading

The Gospel According to Bobby Darin

Wasn’t sure a Gospel Song would fit in with Highly Sensitive Persons (HSPs) at a music appreciation meet last week.

     Still can’t understand why I chose Bobby Darin, the “Splish Splash” originator, to represent my musical taste. We were encouraged by the hosts, a young couple, to bring music that meant a lot to us, perhaps meditative offerings and/or those pieces that represented a special time in our lives.

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SPCA Agent Ensures Care for all Animals

The SPCA Raided my Property Last Week.

     Their probe followed closely on the heels of a police officer who paid us an unsolicited visit.

     A neighbor complained of the Sombitch Rooster, who could not keep crowing to a minimum and has raised such a ruckus, so we have to find him a new home, away from the Philadelphia area, and some less dense place like New Jersey.

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Sending Words ‘To Whom It May Concern’

Potential Employer — 6-21-2010

     A person could not go wrong in hiring Nataly for a job. She’d bring an “Old World spirit to the task and put all of herself in accomplishing the service no matter what the field, no matter what the subject.

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Answer is Within, 2nd Coming Proclaims

The Gospel Writers got it All Wrong!

Those are the words Jesus said on reappearing in public in 2012.

The Kingdom of God is Within, He added.

But each of us must seek it ourselves through ourselves.

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‘Divine Madness’ Reaches Out To Me Daily

Divine Madness.”

     When I first saw the term, I thought of Zorba the Greek, played by Anthony Quinn, who embraced the fullness of life through robust emotions and actions. To laugh in the face of hardship and spit in the face of death, enjoying that special moment of life as if it was the last, and to hell with what anyone thinks.

     To hell with negative thoughts. Live Life with the smile God meant us to project outwardly as well as within.

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A Jury can ‘nullify’ a law to stop injustice

Jury Nullification

Mandatory Sentence

     In at least one country, as a practicing attorney, I would not be permitted to speak to you of those two terms should you happen to be serving on a jury.

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Go Within & Awaken the Meaning of Life

I found the Meaning of Life while meditating with a group at the Resiliency Center in Ambler, PA this morning.

Felt like I was in a cave, where ten of us, seven women and three men, sat cross-legged before a fire. We had just “offered” prayers to a Spirit — a Being — high above us, and I was about to leave the security of the clan when I spoke aloud, breaking the silence.

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Connect to ‘Mother’ for Enlightenment

                         I saw the “Observer” of my Thoughts the other day.

     Watched from within. Saw “me” facilitating and acting on all the senses. “I nudged away a thought, then focused on the feeling of breath at the top of my nasal passage. Tasted the slight chemical taint of eye drops I had placed in my left eye minutes earlier. And, I listened to the soft sounds of a budgie chirping in the distance. 

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All’s well that ends well with a Not Guilty

Part II cont’d from jury-trial-first-day-on-the-job

     Sometimes, while trying a case to a Jury of 12 people, a transformation would take place when I least expected it.

     I’d begin to believe my criminal client had been truthful when he told me he was innocent and didn’t do what he was charged with by Philadelphia police.

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